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Heavenly Deception Part 3

“Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.” Colossians 3:2

Keva battled in her mind the things she read in the Bible and the ideas in the book on death. She put them both aside and moved on to other things she enjoyed. Her fascination with science fiction grew.Young woman thinking. Living Faith is a choice.

But it wasn’t long before one science fiction book brought turmoil to her mind. The book purposed that everyone is a god and that this life is a figment of your imagination that you control. This idea made Keva aware of her utter loneliness.

“If I’m god then why can’t I change my world?” Angry she let go of sci-fi to pursue her new job. She worked at the media department at the local college during her high school summer break.

There wasn’t much to do in summer between class. Keva’s boss noted her fascination with the behind scenes of theater productions.

“Here is what you do to raise and lower the lights.” He smiled as Keva’s eyes stayed glued to his every move. “Combine these and you can create any color of the rainbow. You want a go at it?”

“Yes, sir!” She could hardly contain her excitement.

He let her alone in the light booth where she envisioned her imaginary world come alive. Life for time being seemed perfect where Keva escaped in her imaginary world. After work, she met up with two friends. They all had been basketball teammates in junior high. Now at 16 and 17 their conversations turned the future.

“I’m not sure what I want to do.” Keva admitted. Her grandmama had tried to convince her to consider the military when she was a child. She had joined Jr. ROTC and it appealed to her. She also enjoyed the theatre most and behind the scenes of creating productions was at the top of her list. Her time playing with the theatre lights at the college only enticed her creative dreams.

“So, what do you think of the guy you’re working with?” Leslie shook Keva from her theatrical daydreams.

“What guy?” Disturbed Keva looked at her.

“He’s noticed you and was asking me all kinds of questions about you during the break.”

“I never noticed him.”

“How could you not notice he’s the only other person working with you?”

“Because I’m not interested, is why.” Keva hoped the conversation would change. To her relief, it did when the city bus arrived to pick them up.

When she went back to work the following day. She noticed the guy Leslie was telling her about. She was not impressed. He was about her height, nothing about him was attractive to her. She continued work as usual and stole away to the theatre every chance her boss gave her. She was content to be alone with the light controls and her wild imagination.

The following week there was much work on film repairs and there was not a moment to spare for Keva to escape into her imaginary theatrical world.

Her boss and his assistant had other errands to run leaving Keva and the young man working alone. Keva continued her work hoping to finish early.

“Have you been thinking of me?” She had forgotten the young man was in the room with her.

Keva stopped what she was doing and starred and at him. He was sitting at another table. “What about you?” She asked unconcernedly.

“You know, how you and I could be an item.”

“Why?” Keva shrugged and went back to her work.

“We’ve been working together for two months. You can’t tell me you haven’t thought about me. Unless of course, you like the boss but you know he’s married.”

Her countenance was livid.

“I’m kidding. But I’d still like to go out with you. Making out with you would be fun.”

Keva recalled the first time she kissed a guy. She found it repulsive and did penance all the way home washing her mouth with a pop. The truth was she wondered what her grandmama would have thought of her actions. Her mother didn’t mind and had actually given her permission to go with the man who was eight years her senior. She was only 14 at the time but managed some excuse and got out of going to the party and far from the fellow. Keva was not about to repeat the same mistake.

“Listen, I don’t even know your…”

“Manny,” he jumped in, “My name is Manny Davis.” He gave her a bemused smile. “Think about it and let me know what you want to do.” He got up and went to the next room when the boss’s assistant entered the room.

Keva was not sure she wanted to go out with the guy but unbidden thoughts crossed her mind, “Go ahead make out with the guy. Besides, you know you need the experience. You know the bad reputation you’ve had but now you can prove how much of a woman you are.”

Keva shook the strange thoughts. But they came back, enticing her and filling her with pride.

Use this guy to get kissing experience? She mused. Kissing had always fascinated Keva for as long as she could remember. That was one reason she had given in the first time. But in that situation, she had not been in control and the man called the shots. Now she would control the circumstances in her time and favor.

Devotional Thoughts

“For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life is not of the Father, but is of the world.” 1 John 2:16

You can in Keva’s life that God is ever faithful to have a witness in her life but can you see her digression?

Pride got the better of Keva especially when it was being compounded with the lust of the flesh and lust of the eyes.

“Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.” Romans 1:21

Often times we take for granted God’s faithfulness to show Himself strong in the lives of others. We also take for granted that Keva has no real choice at all, especially as a lost unregenerate sinner. She is doing what is natural to her sinful nature.

How many times have you witnessed to someone over and over again? Have you given up praying for them because there is no real change in their lives?

May I encourage you as God’s child, don’t give up! Allow Christ to be God in your life and see through His eyes.

This verse impacted me this week like never before…

“But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd.” Matthew 9:36

Jesus Christ knew the thoughts and intents of the multitude. He knew they wanted miracles and food. But even so, He had compassion on them.

Is there a “Keva” in your life that you have witnessed or discipled? Is she making wrong choices, diving deeper in lust rather than life?

Don’t give up!

Dive deeper into the heart of God through His word. See how He wants to use you in her life. Discover how our Lord’s faith goes beyond what you see. Every circumstance is orchestrated by His weaving hand.

“Destiny itself is like a wonderful wide tapestry in which every thread is guided by an unspeakable tender hand, placed beside another thread and held and carried by a hundred others.” ~Rainer Maria Rilke

“That all the people of the earth might know the hand of the LORD, that it is mighty: that ye might fear the LORD your God for ever.” Joshua 4:24


In His hands,
Ann Marie Moore

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