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Heavenly Deception Part 4 Conclusion

“Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?” Romans 2:4

Keva discovered her control over men. A simple look would communicate her interest and often times she was rewarded. She did set limitations in her mind. Kissing is alright but going off to his place, no way.

But soon she found she crossed her limits when she roomed with a guy. Here again she set limits to avoid becoming pregnant, never going all the way with a guy.

It wasn’t long before Keva felt things were getting to serious and the young man wanted their relationship to go to the next level. She had to put a barrier between them somehow.

“This is rather a small place you have Keva.” Grandmama looked around. It had been a challenge for Keva to help her grandmother move in but she knew having her around would keep Stephen at bay. Keva had shared an intimate relationship him but neither were willing to commit to marriage. Keva knew her Grandmama would somehow bail her out.

Hadn’t she always? Her half sister Evie knew Grandmama favored Keva. Deep down inside she knew Evie envied her but she also felt bad for Evie who bore the brunt of her mother’s dark secrets. Her mother and Evie moved back to the house where Keva and Grandmama lived. The constant arguments with her mother drove Keva to live off on her own. Her mother and Evie moved to a place of their own leaving her grandmother constantly calling her to come to the house and help her.

A few weeks before Keva moved grandmother in with her, Stephen had moved back to his house after an argument. Now he wanted them to get together but Keva wanted out.

The phone rang. It was Stephen. “I don’t want to talk to you.” Keva lowered her voice as she held her cordless phone in her hand. “No, you can’t come over, my grandmother is living with me now.” She hung up the phone without hearing his pleas. Keva walked to the kitchen, disturbed over Stephen’s call. Her Grandmama knew Keva was troubled though she didn’t know why.

“My child, you know God is a God of the fatherless and I wish we could locate your father.”Keva struggling with faith in God

“After all these years, grandmama? What for, he hasn’t seen me since I was a baby. I’m 17 and I don’t need man dad telling me what to do.”

“Oh, but your papa was a fine man.”

Keva became livid. A fine man! A man that’s never cared for his daughter! I’ve only dreamed about seeing him because of my Grandmama’s foolish desire!

“But you can trust God.” Her grandmother interjected her thoughts.

Trust God! She hated him! Where was this God of the fatherless. Keva ran to the only private room, the bathroom and slammed the door.

With clench fist and a rage that boiled out of control she looked up. I don’t care to find my father and… She pointed upward. I certainly don’t care about you. Tears broke when she addressed God. She weeped till she had no more tears left. She composed herself before walking out of the bathroom but she could not help but feel more broken than ever. Was it guilt or fear? No, she had once defied God not long ago asking Him who he thought he was and He did nothing. No lightning bolt struck her down. Though there were nights she wished he had. And today she had finally let out her true frustration to God and he could do whatever He wanted with her now. She didn’t care.

The phone rang.

She picked up the receiver.

“Keva Price?” A man’s voice with an Irish accent asked.

“Hello, papa.” Keva said without hesitation, she just knew.

Devotional Thought

There is certainly a lot more to this story. But I wanted to point out how God works in people’s lives. Keva’s life is far from being redeemed yet you can see the hand of God at work. When Keva had given herself over to men, when she had compromised her purity, when she didn’t care to find her father and had all together given up, God’s goodness stepped in.

“The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.” Psalm 37:23

Do you see any good in Keva? Oh to have God’s eyes! For there is none good except our Lord.

“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

How many times do we look at the circumstances rather than our faithful God who desires to give eternal life?

It’s true, Keva’s life looks bleak at the moment. But what if she was someone you knew? What if she was the one writing these devotionals? You would know her for who she is now.

But could you dare to trust God for a Keva in your life who has not yet known the Lord? Can you grasp a greater vision for a lost and dying world rather than being content to let them go to hell?

How much would you sacrifice as a friend to me right now if the need arose?

“For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:7-8

Trust your Lord to orchestrate a divine appointment where you will meet a “Keva,” who needs the Lord. You never know how God will use her because you reached out to her in Christ’s love. You never know how her desire to impact one life for God’s glory could lead her many lives for God’s glory.

But the question is are you willing?

“Oh, my brothers and sisters in Christ, if sinners will be damned, at least let them leap to hell over our bodies; and if they will perish, let them perish with our arms about their knees, imploring them to stay, and not madly to destroy themselves. If hell must be filled, at least let it be filled in the teeth of our exertions, and let not one go there unwarned and unprayed for.” ~Charles Spurgeon


In His hands,
Ann Marie Moore

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